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Such a title certainly deserves an explanation, especially since Jesus tells us in A Course in Miracles that
the world was made as an attack on God. [and] was meant to be a place where God could enter not, and where His Son could be apart from Him (W-pII.3.2:1,4).Moreover, we are taught:
This world is the opposite of Heaven, being made to be its opposite, and everything here takes a direction exactly opposite of what is true (T-16.V.3:6).How then can this place, illusory, attacking, and oppositional to truth, be our way back to Heaven? A Course in Miracles' integration of a non-dualistic metaphysics (the illusory world is an attack on God) with a sophisticated and practical psychology of forgiveness (the world is the royal road to Heaven) is what reconciles this seeming paradox, and the purpose of this article is to explain exactly how this reconciliation is accomplished within our experience of the ego's dream of a separated and hostile world. Almost a century ago in his epochal The Interpretation of Dreams, Sigmund Freud wrote: "The interpretation of dreams is the royal road to a knowledge of the unconscious activities of the mind." This seminal statement is based on the psychoanalytic notion that the activities of the unconscious -- the irrational and unbridled impulses of the id -- were by definition totally inaccessible to our consciousness, and therefore could seemingly never be uncovered and treated. However, such exposure to what the father of psychoanalysis conceived to be our innate drives was essential if people were to be helped with their problems, since Freud posited that it was these unconscious impulses that were the determinants of all that we thought, felt, and believed, not to mention how we behaved. Freud's investigations led him to the conclusion that through the analysis of our dreams we would find the key that would unlock these dark, destructive forces that were the cause of not only our individual worlds, but through the psychological defense of sublimation, the progress of civilization as well. Thus, through analyzing or interpreting the symbols of our dreams we would gain access to the unconscious, thereby fulfilling the goal of psychoanalysis of making the unconscious conscious. Only in this way, Freud believed, could people's neuroses -- caused by unconscious and therefore unresolved conflicts -- be healed. Interestingly enough, the Jesus who is the source of A Course in Miracles could make the same statement Freud did, based upon the same reasoning, but with a frame of reference that is greatly expanded and with a goal that would have made the great Viennese physician cringe if he were alive today. As mentioned above, the context for Jesus' teachings of forgiveness is the metaphysical premise that the physical universe is an illusion. Moreover, we shall see presently that the making of the world is the culmination of the ego's strategy to preserve its existence by denying the mind and distracting our attention from the true problem of our having chosen the ego over the Holy Spirit. Before reviewing this brilliantly effective, though totally insane strategy of the ego, let us first examine the need that led to the development of this cosmic plot against truth in the first place. We begin with the original ontological choice to see the "tiny, mad idea" of separation as "a serious idea, and possible of both accomplishment and real effects" (T-27.VIII.6:2-3). In that instant the ego was born, wherein it certainly seemed as if there were a separated mind that had split off from the Mind of Christ, leaving the thought of individual existence to be a foregone conclusion. The upholding of this strange idea of individuality and separation from our Source is presented in the Course in the metaphor of the Son of God falling sleep and dreaming a dream of consciousness, a dream in which there were dualistic thoughts of subject and object. Jesus makes reference to this dichotomy by stating in the text that "Consciousness was the first split introduced into the mind after the separation" (T-3.IV.2:1). At this point, Who we truly are as Christ -- the Son of God at one with His Source -- became a distantly vanishing memory, a Presence in our split minds that was almost inaccessible to our awareness. This Presence is represented in A Course in Miracles by the Holy Spirit. He is the Alternative, the part of our minds that constantly reminds us that the separation from God never truly happened and therefore individuality must be a lie. This reminder is known in the Course as the principle of the Atonement. Confronted by a decision between these two choices -- the ego's separation and the Holy Spirit's Atonement -- we believed in our insanity that the illusion was the truth, and the truth an illusion. And this decision was motivated by one very simple thought: If we chose the Holy Spirit, we would lose our individuality in the abstract Oneness of Heaven. And so, enamored of our newly-acquired special existence, we all collectively as one split mind -- the separated Son of God -- "remembered not to laugh" at the silliness of the "tiny, mad idea" (T-27.VIII.6:2) that a part of God could wrench itself free from perfect Oneness and become separate and self-created. Moreover, we took seriously the thought that "there is a power past omnipotence, a place beyond the infinite, a time transcending the eternal" (T-29.VIII.6:2). And we "forgot" because, once more, the bottom line was that we liked the idea of being on our own: independent of what the ego stated was God's "tyranny" of oneness; autonomous and free; and special, unique, and very much an individualized entity. In fact, however, we simply substituted "illusion for truth [and] fragmentation for wholeness" (T-18.I.4:2), and made the entire inconceivable experience into what we now believed to be a reality, one that was, again, "possible of both accomplishment and real effects" (T-27.VIII.6:3). The ego had now seemingly "won" its battle with the Holy Spirit -- the illusion of separation appearing to have triumphed forever over the truth of perfect oneness -- and all that remained for the ego to secure its existence for all time was to see to it that the Son never changed his mind. For it is the power of the Son of God to change his mind that is the ego's true enemy, as Jesus makes clear to us in the following passages from the text:
Yet its [the ego's] existence is dependent on your mind, because the ego is your belief. Do not be afraid of the ego. It depends on your mind, and as you [the mind's decision maker] made it by believing in it, so you can dispel it by withdrawing belief from it. The ego can be completely forgotten at any time, because it is a totally incredible belief, and no one can keep a belief he has judged to be unbelievable. The more you learn about the ego, the more you realize that it cannot be believed (T-7.VIII.4:6; 5:1-2; 6:2-3; italics mine, except for 5:1).the ego is part of your mind, and because of its source [the decision maker] the ego is not wholly split off, or it could not be believed at all. For it is your mind that believes in it and gives existence to it. Yet it is also your mind that has the power to deny the ego's existence, and you will surely do so when you realize exactly what the journey is on which the ego sets you (T-12.IV.2:4-6; italics mine). Therefore, to reiterate this important point, it is not really God nor His Love that is the ego's enemy, nor the Holy Spirit, Jesus, or the teachings of A Course in Miracles. Rather it is the Son's mind -- actually, the part of the mind that chooses, i.e., the decision maker -- that can decide for God or His Voice that is the ego's problem. Being nothing, the ego is totally dependent on the Son's belief in its reality in order to continue to exist. That is why Jesus makes the following urgent request of us:
You must look upon your illusions and not keep them hidden, because they do not rest on their own foundation. In concealment they appear to do so, and thus they seem to be self-sustained. This is the fundamental illusion on which the others rest (T-13.III.6:1-3; italics mine).As long as the Son remains identified with the ego and its thought system of individuality, the ego's illusory thought system appears real and the Oneness of Heaven is for all intents and purposes nullified within the dream of separation. Because the ego's very existence rests on the Son's decision to identify totally with the thought system of separation, it devises the aforementioned strategy to ensure that he continues to do just that. This is how the ego in its ingenuity seeks to preserve its illusory and therefore tenuous existence: The ego begins by telling the Son that his individuality was bought at a very great price. Indeed, the ego lies, the Son did substitute illusion for truth and fragmentation for wholeness, and that meant destroying the Oneness of Heaven -- God the First Cause and Christ the Effect -- thus annihilating the Creator by usurping His function of creation. And this series of actions, the ego tells us, has a name: sin, for we won our independence by sinning against God. From this seeming ego fact, guilt over what we believe we have done is inevitable, as is the punishment that guilt demands be ours. And since the object of our sin was the ego's projected image of a victimized God, it is this ego God's punishment that we fear. This "unholy trinity" of sin, guilt, and fear finds graphic expression in the following passage on magic thoughts from the manual for teachers, for which the prototype is the ontological belief that we can exist outside of God:
It [a magic thought] states, in the clearest form possible, that the mind which believes it has a separate will that can oppose the Will of God, also believes it can succeed [sin]. That this can hardly be a fact is obvious. Yet that it can be believed as fact is equally obvious. And herein lies the birthplace of guilt. Who usurps the place of God and takes it for himself now has a deadly "enemy" [fear]. And he must stand alone in his protection, and make himself a shield to keep him safe from fury that can never be abated, and vengeance that can never be satisfied (M-17.5:4-9; italics mine).It should be pointed out that this truly terrible triad is not only an illusion, but one that is deliberately made-up. This fulfills the ego's specific purpose of protecting its existence by first making the Son of God fearful, and then mindless. The fear of the vengeful wrath of the ego's God, spawned by the Son's guilt over his belief in sin, leads to the employment of the two basic ego defenses of denial and projection. Indeed, it is a psychological law that whatever is repressed (or denied) must be projected. And so when guilt is first made real by our belief in the reality of separation, the resulting horror drives the thought of our own choice of usurpation into the unconscious, only to surface again in the form of projected attack. When the attack is directed towards another body, we call it anger; when it is projected onto our own bodies, we call it sickness. Unfortunately, having made guilt into a reality, anger and sickness are the only two alternatives open to us: Do I attack you, or do I let something (or someone) else attack me? It is this joint dynamic of denial and projection -- carrying out the need to have our guilt (or self-hatred) perceived outside of us -- that collectively is the cause of the physical universe. On the individual level, these dynamics are reflected in the birth of the specific body -- ours and others -- to be the object of our minds' denied and projected hatred, as is explained to us in Lesson 161:
Complete abstraction is the natural condition of the mind. But part of it is now unnatural. It does not look on everything as one. It sees instead but fragments of the whole, for only thus could it invent the partial world you see. The purpose of all seeing is to show you what you wish to see. All hearing but brings to your mind the sounds it wants to hear. Thus were specifics made. Hate is specific. There must be a thing to be attacked. An enemy must be perceived in such a form he can be touched and seen and heard, and ultimately killed. When hatred rests upon a thing, it calls for death as surely as God's Voice proclaims there is no death. Fear is insatiable, consuming everything its eyes behold, seeing itself in everything, compelled to turn upon itself and to destroy. Who sees a brother as a body sees him as fear's symbol. And he will attack, because what he beholds is his own fear external to himself, poised to attack, and howling to unite with him again. Mistake not the intensity of rage projected fear must spawn. It shrieks in wrath, and claws the air in frantic hope it can reach to its maker and devour him (W-pI.161.2; 3:1; 7-8; italics mine).And so the perceptual dreamworld, experienced outside our minds, now contains the triad of sin, guilt, and fear that we secretly believe exists within our minds, but now hope will be magically forgotten as a result of the mechanisms of denial and projection. The enemy is no longer experienced within our minds, but perceived instead outside us in the cruel and threatening world. This results in a life of fear, with no memory of the guilt that is the true source of our pain and discomfort:
The belief that by seeing it [the guilt we do not want] outside you have excluded it from within is a complete distortion of the power of extension. That is why those who project are vigilant for their own safety. They are afraid that their projections will return and hurt them. Believing they have blotted their projections from their own minds, they also believe their projections are trying to creep back in. Since the projections have not left their minds, they are forced to engage in constant activity in order not to recognize this (T-7.VIII.3:8-12).This "constant activity" reflects the ego's ongoing attempts to have us believe that our problems and therefore solutions are in the world, and not in our minds:
All temptation is nothing more than some form of the basic temptation not to believe the idea for today ["My salvation comes from me."]. Salvation seems to come from anywhere except from you. So, too, does the source of guilt. You see neither guilt nor salvation as in your own mind and nowhere else. When you realize that all guilt is solely an invention of your mind, you also realize that guilt and salvation must be in the same place. In understanding this you are saved. The seeming cost of accepting today's idea is this: It means that nothing outside yourself can save you; nothing outside yourself can give you peace. But it also means that nothing outside yourself can hurt you, or disturb your peace or upset you in any way. Today's idea places you in charge of the universe, where you belong because of what you are (W-pI.70.1:1–2:3).Indeed, because of our having forgotten the true source of our distress -- our minds' decision to be separate from God -- we have become virtually mindless, the ego's ultimate goal. Therefore, as we stated above, if we are without a mind, there is naturally no way we can ever change our minds about the ego. And this seems to ensure that its thought system of separation, individuality, and specialness remain forever beyond hope of correction. Thus is the ego's strategy completed and its promise to preserve the Son's individuality fulfilled. This plan of denying our minds' decision to be separate, projecting the forgotten decision onto the body, is summarized in Lesson 136, "Sickness is a defense against the truth." In this important lesson, Jesus uses the phrase "doubly shielded by oblivion" (5:2) to describe how our decision to be separate from the truth is protected by the dynamics of denial and projection. Thus there is no hope for the Son ever to realize his mistake and make the correct choice. But as Jesus comforts us in the text: The ego's thought system "may be fool-proof, but it is not God-proof" (T-5.VI.10:6). And what allows the Presence of God in our minds -- the Holy Spirit or Jesus -- to undo the ego's seemingly invincible plot is the pain that we feel from our original and ongoing decision to remain separate from the Love of God, a decision that enables us to exist as an individual. It is this discomfort over our unhappy situation (referred to below as having "an imprisoned will") that impels us finally to ask for "a better way":
An imprisoned will engenders a situation which, in the extreme, becomes altogether intolerable. Tolerance for pain may be high, but it is not without limit. Eventually everyone begins to recognize, however dimly, that there must be a better way. As this recognition becomes more firmly established, it becomes a turning point. This ultimately reawakens spiritual vision, simultaneously weakening the investment in physical sight (T-2.III.3:4-8).Realizing that our way has not worked -- "Resign now as your own teacher. for you were badly taught" (T-12.V.8:3; T-28.I.7:1) -- we call upon the "better way," which means calling upon a better Teacher. And thus we are taught another way of perceiving the world. It is this call that begins the process wherein we are "directed [by the Holy Spirit] up the ladder separation led [us] down" (T-28.III.1:2). The choice for the ego led us into the world, within which we fashioned a body filled with the unforgiveness that originates in, and still remains within the mind. Thus it is with our physical and psychological experiences -- our special relationships -- that our new Teacher must begin His lessons. Once again, our asking for help is what allows the healing process of forgiveness to begin. Jesus or the Holy Spirit teach us that the world we perceive outside is the shadow of the world we first made real inside -- in our minds. And now we can begin to understand the important role the world plays in the undoing of the ego thought system. Were it not for our projections of the ego's thoughts of sin, guilt, and fear, we would have no opportunity to know about the existence of our minds, let alone the insane thoughts they contain. Thus does the world become the royal road that leads us back to the Heaven that its original intent was to conceal. And so Jesus turns the tables on the ego: The dynamic of projection, which is the ego's ace in the hole as it were, now has been transformed into a means of salvation and healing. In the context of the ego's masterful defense of special relationships and the shift to the holy relationship, Jesus writes:
Such is the Holy Spirit's kind perception of specialness; His use of what you made, to heal instead of harm (T-25.VI.4:1).And so, having let Jesus interpret the world for us, we now understand that the seemingly real world of perception is nothing but the projection into form of the mind's thoughts: of the ego's separation and attack, or the Holy Spirit's forgiveness and joy:
Projection makes perception. The world you see is what you gave it, nothing more than that. But though it is no more than that, it is not less. Therefore, to you it is important. It is the witness to your state of mind, the outside picture of an inward condition. As a man thinketh, so does he perceive. Perception is a result and not a cause. And you will see the witness to the choice you made, and learn from this to recognize which one you chose. The world you see but shows you how much joy you have allowed yourself to see in you, and to accept as yours. And, if this is its meaning, then the power to give it joy must lie within you (T-21.in.1:1-6,8; 2:6-8; italics mine, except for 2:8).Therefore, it is only when we are able to recognize our hatred of others in all its myriad forms -- subtle and overt, special love and special hate -- that we can meaningfully ask for help to shift our perception of the figures in the dream that we are dreaming. At first we believe we are shifting our perception of our partner in specialness, but it is not too long before it dawns on us that that shift is not really in what we are perceiving outside our minds. In truth, our forgiveness of another reflects our forgiveness of ourselves -- in our minds. Having authored the dream and all the figures in it by our thoughts projected outwards, we are reflecting the mind's forgiveness of itself. Therefore, the ego's make-believe story of our seeming sin against God and His Son also had no effect, and therefore never happened in reality. In other words, from recognizing the full extent of our attack thoughts towards others, we are able to "learn from this to recognize which [witness we] chose." The source of our anger, and indeed all distress, rests within the decision-making aspect of our minds, which the ego sought to hide from our awareness by its double shield of oblivion: repressed guilt and a projected world. Through the Holy Spirit's kind reinterpretation of our perceptions, we come to realize that all this originated from our minds' decision to be separate and to remain separate. And now that we are finally aware of this mistake, we can at last make the correct choice and have all our past errors be undone for us through the Holy Spirit in our right minds. Unfortunately, a tendency in many students of A Course in Miracles is to deny the grim bizarreness of this world, masking it under the veils of what can be termed a "positive spirituality." This attitude, born of denial, sees only the "good," and this perception enables them to pretend that within the ego's dream world of separation there is no pain, hatred, or murder. Not seeing any problems in the world outside, they then deny themselves the only opportunity -- "the royal road" -- for getting back in touch with the world inside. A teacher is rendered impotent if there is no classroom and nothing to teach. The horror of the world we made as a substitute for God is the very classroom Jesus uses, that he may instruct us how the world reflects back to us the real problem of our minds' decision for guilt and individuality. The following passage nicely summarizes our discussion, and highlights this article's central point:
Everything you perceive as the outside world is merely your attempt to maintain your ego identification, for everyone believes that identification is salvation. Yet consider what has happened, for thoughts do have consequences to the thinker. You have become at odds with the world as you perceive it, because you think it is antagonistic to you. This is a necessary consequence of what you have done. You have projected outward what is antagonistic to what is inward, and therefore you would have to perceive it this way. That is why you must realize that your hatred is in your mind and not outside it before you can get rid of it; and why you must get rid of it before you can perceive the world as it really is (T-12.III.7:5-10; italics mine).Before we can "perceive the world as it really is" (a reference to the forgiven or real world), we must first "get rid" of our mind's hatred. And this is accomplished by having originally projected out this hatred onto another, and only then being taught by Jesus that hate's source has never left our minds. Our desire to preserve our ego identification is the underlying motivation for the world of specifics we made real and now perceive. And it is this desire we have sought to conceal behind the world's veils of specialness. However, through our study and practice of Jesus' teachings in A Course in Miracles we have grown to understand our insanity, and so we can finally make the only meaningful decision our dream of separation holds out to us: the decision to choose again:
In this world the only remaining freedom is the freedom of choice; always between two choices or two voices (C-1.7:1).With Jesus now as our teacher, we place our world into his gentle hands, asking his love to be our guide instead of our specialness; the oneness of God's Son to be our reality and Identity, instead of the separate self we have cherished since time began. Instead of the ego's thoughts of attack and hate, it is these words of comfort and truth from the workbook that now rest upon our lips. And we give thanks for them, as we do to the loving brother who gave them to us:
Now are we saved indeed. For in God's Hands we rest untroubled, sure that only good can come to us. If we forget, we will be gently reassured. If we accept an unforgiving thought, it will be soon replaced by love's reflection. And if we are tempted to attack, we will appeal to Him Who guards our rest to make the choice for us that leaves temptation far behind. No longer is the world our enemy, for we have chosen that we be its friend (W-pI.194.9). |