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The September newsletter discussed the first of the three principles of the ego, and its answer by the first lesson of the Holy Spirit. This article continues the discussion with the second and third of these. We begin by restating the three principles of the ego thought system, and their corresponding answers by the Holy Spirit (see the end of Chapter 6 in the text). The Ego
In considering the ego's thought system, it is helpful to remember that the ego's bottom line is to preserve its individual existence at all costs. Indeed, the very origin of the ego reflects this ultimate purpose, since the ego could only have come into existence by separating from God, an act that within its own thought system meant the annihilation of the Creator. The ego's first principle, To have, take all from all, is essentially a statement of this basic ego goal, which can be restated as one or the other, or as it is more graphically presented in the manual for teachers: kill or be killed (manual, p. 43; M-17.7:11). Since all of time is but fragmentary shadows of that ontological instant when we chose the separation of the ego over the oneness of Christ, God's one creation, we but relive this original and terrifying decision each and every moment that we choose individuality and specialness to be our reality. As Jesus states in the text:
Therefore, in order to keep our individual existence alive and well, we must always maintain our separation, and this we do through attack, the ego's second principle: To have separation, teach attack to learn it. And attack, the ego's final defense against the Love of God, is the fulfillment of its primary goal: to keep the separation but not to be responsible for it, as Jesus explains in the introduction to his discussion of the crucifixion:
Part I of this article discussed the tiny mad idea and some of the repercussions of the Son's having taken this thought seriously. We shall revisit this ontological instant now, looking at some additional aspects of the separation's beginnings, with special emphasis on their implications for the second and third ego principles to be considered in this article. We have already seen that when the separation thought appeared to rise in the mind of God's Son, he was attracted to the specialness of his newly found individuality. Therefore, he chose the ego's interpretation of this tiny, mad idea instead of the Holy Spirit's Atonement principle that the separation never truly happened. This allowed him to believe in the reality of what he experienced to be his newly won freedom from the imagined tyranny of God. But as soon as the Son chose the ego and became identified with its thought system of a separated and individualized self, the ego threw him a curve ball, as it were. It told the Son that although it was indeed true that he was now on his own, autonomous and free, his freedom had come at a great price. We have touched on this idea above, but now we can appreciate its full implications. The ego continues to explain to the Son that the only way he could have achieved his freedom and individual existence was to destroy the God of perfect Oneness. It is clear to any logical mind that separation and oneness, individuality and totality cannot coexist in the same place, any more than darkness and light, or fear and love can both be present at the same time. One automatically abolishes the other. And so, the ego concludes in its argument to the Son, the separation was bought at the cost of annihilating God so that individuality might exist, and this act is called sin. Thus, in the Son's mind, separation is now forever equated with sinfulness, of which he is continually reminded by his very existence as a separate individual. The seeming blessing of individuality was short-lived, to say the very least, and has now become a curse, for sin can have only one result -- punishment, and at the hands of a vengeful God no less, Who, so it seems, will rise from the grave to pursue his sinful Son:
Thus, the very fear of God's punishment continually reinforces the belief that something terrible has been done -- the sin of separation and individuality -- that necessitates such punishment and justifies the Son's state of ongoing fear. And he is trapped within this vicious vise of separation because he does not want to let go his belief in the reality of his individual existence: " But you have made of your reality an idol, which you must protect against the light of truth. And all the world becomes the means by which this idol can be saved" (text, p. 575; T-29.VII.9:8-9). Of necessity then, there is no possible outcome for him other than a life of specialness and sin that perpetually condemns him to a prison of guilt and fear, suffering and death. But the ego once again comes to the Son's " rescue," this time by employing the dynamic of projection. Its rescue strategy works in this way: The ego tells the Son that since the separation from God is real and has actually happened, there is unfortunately nothing that can deny the reality of sin. But, there is a way that the sin could be gotten rid of, so that all that would remain would be the individuality that was won when the separation from God was accomplished. In other words, the ego's plan is to keep the separation but not the sin. The ego thus counsels the Son to split off part of his self -- the thought of sin -- and project it outside his mind, beyond himself. This seemingly gives rise to another person, who now will become the repository of the Son's sin. In " The Dreamer of the Dream" in Chapter 27 of the text, Jesus refers to this as the world of dreams, consisting of the mind's secret dream of sin, and the projected dream of the world in which are found the specific figures who represent the sinful self we seek to keep hidden. This psychological " trick" allows the Son to retain his individuality, but now the sin has been given to " someone else." Someone else is put in quotation marks because in fact there is no one out there, the world being nothing more than an hallucination in the disturbed mind of God's Son (text, pp. 413-14; T-20.VIII.7-9). Only in the Son's dream of separation do specific people exist outside his mind as sinners. Nonetheless, within the dream this strategy is, in the Course's words, fool-proof. Indeed, the entire physical universe was devised by the ego with just this purpose in mind: to make up a world of specifics so that there could be someone out there onto whom we could project our hidden hatred of ourselves. That is the meaning of Jesus' teaching in workbook lesson 161:
And so we continually use our perception to see the sin and guilt that we " wish to see," the sounds our ego " wants to hear." This necessitates our constant vigilance to be on the lookout for these objects of hate, and gives rise to the ego's third principle: Be vigilant only for the ego and its kingdom of guilt. Understanding this ego dynamic of how the splitting off of our sin leads to the making up of a world of sin, enables us to have a deeper appreciation of the power of these two ego principles of
It is this vigilance for the guilt perceived in another that characterizes our experience within the world in which we believe we live, and which is captured so graphically in the section from the Obstacles to Peace on the " Attraction of Guilt." In a passage parallel to what was quoted above from Lesson 161, Jesus uses the image of " hungry dogs of fear" to describe the ego's insatiable need to find and then attack the guilt it perceives in others (text, pp. 382-83; T-19.IV-A.12,13). In summary, then, the ego's strategy is first to establish sin as real, as the means of demonstrating to the Son that his individuality truly exists and that the separation from God actually occurred. Once this has been accepted as truth, the ego has us split off our belief in sin and project it outside ourselves. This results in the mind's inner world of sin, guilt, and fear being perceived outside in a physical world, replete with sinful victimizers ready to attack us, unless we are able -- with full justification -- to attack them first. Attack is therefore the means whereby we believe we can be saved from our guilt, wherein we have traded our internal terror of God's wrath for the daily fears everyone in our world experiences as part of what we consider to be normal existence. Because of the ego's use of denial, it never occurs to us that there is something very wrong with the ego's plan of salvation; namely -- it does not work. Designed to protect us from fear, the ego's plan merely reinforces it. This miserable state of affairs of not being able to confront the ego with its insane thought system and question its logic is summarized in the following passage:
Denial thus serves to obliterate from our awareness
Until this decision-making part can be restored to our awareness there is no hope, a state which the ego wishes always to maintain. Paradoxically, it is the very pain that the ego's thought system induces in us that becomes the cause of its ultimate undoing:
Unable to justify a life of misery and suffering by blaming others, we are finally ready to ask for help from Someone other than our egos. As Jesus exhorts: " Resign now as your own teacher for you were badly taught" (text, pp. 211,548; T-12.V.8:3; T-28.I.7:1). Inherent in this decision is our recognition that we want joy instead of pain, happiness instead of misery, and peace instead of war. And so because it is this peace that we want, it is this peace we wish to learn, the second lesson of the Holy Spirit: To have peace, teach peace to learn it. We have come to realize, finally, that Jesus was right and we were wrong. Moreover, we can gladly accept that we are far better off and happier when we choose his thought system of forgiveness and peace, rather than the ego's insane system of specialness and attack. As Jesus instructs us in this second lesson: " There can be no conflict between sanity and insanity. Only one is true, and therefore only one is real" (text, p. 99; T-6.V-B.6:1-2). Therefore:
What is required of us now is the vigilance that undoes the ego's vigilance, the meaning of the Holy Spirit's third lesson: Be vigilant only for God and His Kingdom. This vigilance translates into becoming aware of the ego's underlying purpose in maintaining an ongoing attitude of judgment and attack. In other words, through A Course in Miracles Jesus is asking us to invite his help in becoming aware of our ego's need to perpetuate and preserve its individuality by making someone else responsible for it. Looking at the ego's darkness with Jesus' light beside us is what allows us to see through -- literally -- the ego's smokescreen of sin, guilt, and fear to the truth of the Holy Spirit's Atonement, which undoes the thought of separation at its source. In an important passage from the text, Jesus explains this crucial principle:
The word together is emphasized because the crucial variable here is our joining with Jesus in this process of vigilance. To look without him is to replicate the original " looking" at the tiny, mad idea with our egos, without the Holy Spirit, therefore remembering " not to laugh" (text, p. 544; T-27.VIII.6:2). This point of doing things on our own without the Holy Spirit is highlighted in the concluding section of the manual for teachers:
The need for our vigilance, and the enormous effort required for the undoing of the ego's thought system is summarized in the following passage from Jesus' discussion of the the Holy Spirit's third lesson:
The good news about A Course in Miracles is that we no longer have to pretend that we are nice and loving people, who wish only to return with Jesus to our home in Heaven. If we were, then we never would have wished to leave God in the first place, and we certainly would not still be choosing to remain within our separated and individualized state. Quite to the contrary, Jesus' purpose in his Course is to help us to understand that we do indeed cherish our individuality, and are even willing to pay the heavy price of sin and murder in order to sustain it. By looking with him, however -- without judgment or guilt -- we realize that there is nothing in others or ourselves to forgive, for there is nothing there even to perceive, let alone condemn. As we continue now with the passage quoted from above:
And so, when we look at our investment in maintaining the three ego principles, which support our specialness and individuality, we realize, as did the little boy in the fairy tale, that the ego-emperor truly has no clothes on. Its thought system of sin, guilt, and fear, suffering, hate, and death -- all with seeming power over God -- is nothing. Moreover, we realize that not only does the ego thought system have no power, but that there is, in fact, no ego at all. Only the Love of God is true, and therefore only the Love of God remains within our minds. Thus is the dream of a mad journey away from Heaven into the ego's world of individuality undone through this gentle vigilance, born of our joining with Jesus or the Holy Spirit. With Their Love beside us, we are brought back, safe and sound, to the home of Christ we never truly left. Paraphrasing the inspiring words of the text, we exclaim with great joy:
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